Wow, Oprah's doing an amazing show today on people who cut themselves or do drugs as a manifestation of molestation. Amazing footage from Intervention, a show a great DP buddy of mine shoots. Check it out in reruns.
God, I really feel for those people, but I just could never take on dating someone who was any form of drug addict. It's funny where we draw our boundaries. I used to date a cutter who wanted to marry me, but luckily we were really young and I escaped.
So I just finished another wild Flash Forward networking class, putting my ass on the line again as required. It was amazing, but it also napalmed my life, bringing into light all the areas that need to be handled/cleaned up so I can focus on my industry projects. I fixed a list of outstanding crap about 3/4 of this length, but these bad boys are what remain on Lis' ol TTD. Because like any rehab program, you can't fix it until you name it.
Areas I'm out of Integrity:
Being overextended / not saying no
Being late / getting lost / misjudging time
Being fat / out of shape / eating for pleasure (my normal weight is camera-ready-size, so I have 55 caregiver / grief / Mom-wished-I-had-a-baby-before-she-died pounds to shed)
NOT FOCUSING (thank you, Claire)
House: Sort and choose 70% to donate to charity
Office: Sort paperwork and choose 70% to donate to recycling
Do corporate taxes
Do corporate notekeeping
Make friends with the telephone, and contact everyone on my relationship map
Close out my car accident insurance case from last February
Set up computer file for map of relationships and contact journal
Living with my sister as a "little" sister
Create a salary system that allows me to live and continue maintaining all of the above habits
There. I said it. That's where I'm out of integrity.
I will handle the above with 100% effectiveness by May 1st.
I'm Lis Fucking Fies.