Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Aunt Twisty is

...at it again with another brilliant post, this one about violence against Mexican women. Of course, I've shopped at half the stores she lists as maquiladoras. Urgh, guilt.

Aunt Twisty, I lit a candle for you. Continued good thoughts during chemo.

More Google Madness

Someone googled "What to Buy an ENFP for Christmas" and visited my site...so through that odd connection, I found this site with its excellent holiday advice about paring down.

Monday, November 28, 2005

I'm Not Dead Yet

Or am I? Feel like I got hit with a 2x4.

So as you all know by now, I disappear from the blogging world when things are going shitty and I'm overwhelmed. Thanksgiving Day was actually spent with a group of great new friends, and then the next morning Nurse Sis and I got up way too early to prepare for our cousins' arrival...they left Sunday, and I've pretty much been asleep since then. I have a g-friend who lost her mom recently who said I'd need a ridiculous amount of sleep the first year to process all the emotional turmoil. She wasn't kidding. As delightful as the company was, it's harder than ever to be social...AND then there's guilt during the moments when I'm not missing Mom.

I'm thinking it's TIME...time I take ahold of the low-lying depression and really get into it. Get some therapy, get some massages, address the whole "don't touch me or cause any large emotions in me" aversion I'm having. Do some screaming on the beach. The past two months I've mostly felt numb and in denial. Now I guess it's time to start feeling again. Jump in. Get my anti-anxiety dosage handled, stop medicating through food and alcohol, stop avoiding writing that puts me in an emotional tizzy, address the lack of a sex drive and the whole headache/nausea/vertigo side effects I've had. There's just so much to do; so many outstanding projects and commitments in my life that I don't want to wrap up that have to get done so I don't go insane from avoiding them. Time to grow up and take responsibility for the shambles of my life. Bring it on, bitches!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Can You Tell I'm Procrastinating

Cleaning house sucks. Really really really don't want to do this. Where is my clone?

Okay, this response to my post a few days ago about calling myself a "Rogue Amazon" cracked me up so much I have to post the whole thing here.

Ah gods, smite me now before I have to organize/clean my office...Are the rest of you in this much pre-holiday pain?

Is it possible you're an Rogue Urban Bohemian Entrepeneurial Amazon? Just curious. Yes, that would make you a RUBE Amazon, which is probably contradictory in and of itself.

The term "Rogue Amazon" reminds me of an Angel ep where Wesley described himself as a "Rogue Demon Hunter," and Cordy asked him, "What's a Rogue Demon?"


Brilliant. What do I stand for? I'm a rube.


Yesterday after hearing yet another incredibly annoying radio ad to "GO SEE RENT!!!!", I declared to Nurse Sis that if the studio didn't freaking knock it off with their obnoxious hard-sell tactics, they were going to lose a guaranteed customer. Then I read this incredibly funny review of "Rent" in today's LA Times. Bye-bye, movie. Not gonna see it. Everybody has AIDS, AIDS, AIDS!!!!

Cosmic Male Twin?

Swear to TPTB, I could have written Paul's post on his Rocking Funeral plans (Not to denigrate the post...could have written the subject matter, not the excellent/unique take on it). I've thought often about our weird customs since attending my Uncle's military funeral last weekend. It was a perfect expression of Cal, just as Mom's was for her. So...what's mine?

Between seeing my friend Suzanne Lyon's excellent/poignant hootenanny film about middle-age love and the funeral business Undertaking Betty last week at the Crest (yes Naomi Watts is that incandescent in person...I'm girl-crushing) and re-viewing Eddie Izzard's DVD comedy routine about wanting his casket flung at a tree to give his guests one more laugh, I'm thinking:
my funeral = GO BIG OR GO HOME.

It's Spock ears, pirate talk and the Time Warp for my memorial revelers. Start growing your brass balls now or you can't come and get the awesome goodie bag. I'll be damned if the last party I throw isn't the best one ever. Arrrrrgh.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Holiday Shopping

So I've never confessed to you guys what a freak I am about giving gifts. I'm one of those people who has a gift closet and picks up stuff that reminds me of people throughout the year. Yes, I'm already done with my Christmas shopping, and yesterday pondered wrapping them and then finishing my holiday cards, all in the name of procrastinating from cleaning and writing (oh bane of my existance).

In the spirit of understanding how many of you HATE shopping for loved ones and can't hire me for assistance and who don't want to take down Wal-Mart, here is another great suggestion:

Presents whose proceeds go to the Christopher Reeve Foundation. A little something for everyone there, and a worthy cause.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Wal-Mart Movie a Success

I love seeing brave filmmakers making a difference. I received this email today. And if you want to have your holiday shopping done, they have one heck of a bulk deal on their documentary. -KS

Dear activists, colleagues, and friends,

I am neurotic, jewish and from New York, so I am not pre-disposed to celebrate...but...LAST WEEK WAS AMAZING.

Norwich: "Wow. At the Norwich Public Library last evening we had to close the doors and turn folks away!"

Milwaukee: "We were thrilled with the turn out and media coverage for our two screenings."

Portland: "Had a fantastic screening at Bridgeport UCC in Portland, Oregon on Saturday night... a packed house."

Flagstaff: "more then 800 people. ... standing and sitting in the aisles. We another screening planned."

Madison: "More then 900 people waiting in line in the snow to see the film."

The reports like these from around the country (see photos) of filled screenings, from schools to church to bike store to hospital basement to pizza parlor to yoga studio...Wherever a screen exits, someone was showing the film. I spoke in Eugene to a crowd of over 700 at Lane community college, Lisa was in Santa Fe, Devin in Chicago, Kabira in Florida with College Democrats and Republicans, Sarah hit Santa Monica and West Hollywood, Jim entertained Orange Coast College, Sharaf went to Chapman College and Rick Jacobs spoke to Progressive Majority. You get the idea! 7,000 screenings around the country, and hundreds of thousands of people were engaged in the real deal of democracy.

Now that (most) of you have had a chance to see the film, it's time to take action. Wal-Mart Watch and Wake-Up Wal-Mart are the two major national campaigns, and we strongly urge you to get involved with them. But there are literally hundreds of allies who are working to fight Wal-Mart, so we created a page where you can explore all of the activity here:


I'd specifically like to draw your attention to the Healthcare Accountability Act. Our friends at the Campaign for America's Future, MoveOn.org and others are asking you to write your member of Congress and encourage them to co-sponsor this bill that would require profitable companies like Wal-Mart to take responsibility for their employees' healthcare. It's very simple, you can start here:


Thursday is Thanksgiving, and many of you will be gathering with family and friends, so please bring the film with you. While some are watching football, others can learn about the high cost of low price -- it's certainly more fun to argue about Wal-Mart then whatever family fight has been going on for years.

To help spread the word, we're now offering a box of 5 DVDs for $50 with free shipping anywhere in the U.S. This is an amazing deal and about as low as we can go and still keep the lights on, so please give the gift that just might change where people buy their own holiday presents. Buy a box here:


I want to leave you with one more incredible story sent in from Santa Maria, California:

"We published letters to the editor, put up posters and passed out flyers. At the premier the room was packed. The most crucial of the screenings was 48 hours prior to a city council meeting where slick Wal-Mart reps were coming to try and get the zoning code changed to allow for a 55 acre supercenter. At the city council meeting the chambers were packed...Empassioned by the stories in the film by people just like them, the chamber audience got a bit rowdy....Wal-Mart failed to get the council members approval with a vote of 5-0 against them! Thanks in no small part to your film, your alternative distribution strategy and dedicated local field producers like Bob Banner here in San Luis Obispo...the city of Santa Maria is safe! (for the time being)"

The film is becoming the tool it is meant to be, going into the world and building the movement. Unlike traditional opening weeks, this one is just the beginning, and the fight will be a long and hard one, but with your help and support the film is touching hearts, changing minds and creating social change!

Robert Greenwald
and the entire Brave New Films team -- Devin, Jim, Kabira, Lisa, Rick, Sarah and Sharaf

P.S. Today is Wal-Mart day at the Huffington Post. Read blogs from Al Norman,Stan Fortune, Sen. Kennedy, Rep. Sanders, one of the film's co-producers Kerry Candaele, David Sirota, Andy Stern, and many others (including me).

P.P.S. Since Friday is supposed to be the biggest shopping day of the year, it's a great opportunity to have some fun. Check out the Wal-mart Takedown Action Center for some guerilla ideas.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Square Peg

Finally found my definition. I'm a Rogue Amazon.


Thursday, November 17, 2005

Big Bro's Post

About Uncle Cal is really lovely, and has two great pictures.

Off to Uncle Cal's funeral. Very sad, but I'm pleased he's going to get his full military funeral.  Posted by Picasa

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Go Team Murderball!

Oscar documentaries announced
Nov 16, 2005, 10:29 GMT

LOS ANGELES, CA, United States (UPI) -- The independent hit 'March of the Penguins' was among 15 documentaries short-listed Tuesday for the upcoming Academy Award nominations.

The list was whittled down from 82 eligible documentaries, The Hollywood Reporter said. The nominees for the 78th annual Academy Awards will be announced Jan. 31.

The other documentaries making the cut include 'After Innocence,' 'The Boys of Baraka,' 'Darwin`s Nightmare,' 'The Devil and Daniel Johnston,' 'Enron: The Smartest Guys in the Room,' 'Favela Rising,' 'Mad Hot Ballroom' and 'Murderball.'

Also making the short list are 'Occupation: Dreamland,' 'On Native
Soil: The Documentary of the 9/11 Commission Report,' 'Rize,' 'Street Fight,' '39 Pounds of Love' and 'Unknown White Male,' the Academy said Tuesday.

The Academy Awards will be presented March 5 at Hollywood`s Kodak Theater and televised live by ABC.

Copyright 2005 by United Press International


I just realized we should be organizing/buying Narnia opening day tickets. Who's in? El Capitan, with a stage show and the film exhibit! Say, 8 pm? There's only 100 General Admission seats left! The more, the merrier!

And please correct me if I'm wrong, but I believe we can all buy our own tickets and sit together...that they truly are GA and not numbered tickets like Arclight...is that right?

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Dare I Hope?

They're making Lex and Kitty look so good. I don't know what I want more; her wardrobe or to date a handsome bald man who dares to wear those boots and that jacket. Yum. Ah, but we've been crushed by comic flicks before. It's the age-old adage. Better to have loved and lost...

No Witty Title

My Uncle Cal passed away Sunday at 5 pm. You guys can always tell when I'm feeling super-crappy because I stop posting. Anyway, just thought I'd let you know what's up.

I'm so glad I didn't go. He even followed almost the exact same schedule as Mom once they took him off the ventilator. I feel really awful for my cousins, and for Brian and Brenda seeing such a similar death of a loved one so soon, and most of all for my sweet Aunt who is suddenly peerless in our family.

Moral of the story? DON'T SMOKE.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

ENFP and Famous People

Wow. Someone googled that and then came to my site. What a disappointment for them. :) 14,000 hits for that search on Google and I'm on the first page. Crazy.

Through the search results I found another site to look up your famous celeb kin four-letter people. I've got Cher on my list!

Friday, November 11, 2005

Mmmmnnn...at the risk of having the taste of a drag queen, aren't these Giuseppe Zanottis delish? I REALLY have to cancel my Neiman Marcus subscription. Trouble with a capital T. Posted by Picasa

Thursday, November 10, 2005

I'm Super, Thanks for Asking

My mom's older brother was too ill to make it to her funeral because of his own health problems (lung as well). As you'll see in her autobiography, they were quite a pair, and he has always been super protective of her. He hasn't been able to talk about her since she died, and with his own health so precarious, Nurse Sis had visited my Aunt and Uncle last week to check in on him and make sure he wasn't thinking about following mom.

Of course, yesterday we got the word that he was back in the hospital with pneumonia and that the prognosis was poor. Nurse Sis flew out today (I dropped her off at LAX and promptly locked my keys in the car at the loading zone. Getting the door jimmied cost the same amount as a shuttle for Nurse Sis would have - go figure.). The cousins and Big Bro will all be gathered at the hospital by nine, leaving me the only relative not there.

By the time I got the news at three pm that Uncle Cal was on a ventilator, all the non-stop flights out were booked. Which is interesting, because beyond the physical limitations of getting to Nevada quickly, I'm not sure I can emotionally handle it. From here I can at least be happy that mom and Uncle Cal will be together soon to take care of each other. But if I was in a hospital room so soon, seeing another loved one go through all the same procedures, the machines making the same noises as they did for mom...I just think I would finally snap.

At the risk of being all Mel Gibson Bad 80s Movie Hero, everyone I love has been dying. It's been a rough two years, losing four grandparents, my other uncle, my best friend's mom, a close friend of the family, all while supporting mom through her battle...I'm tired, and I'm trying to hold it together, but christ, you know? Nurse Sis always says "The more people you know, the more people you know are going to die."

What's worse for me than that cheery thought is that I'm now in the oldest generation of my family. I'm thirty-two, and all our elders are gone. My siblings and cousins are all that's left (assuming my poor aunt can stick this out). Huh? What is up with this mass exodus off the planet? And if something bad is going down, then take us with you, guys.

So sad that it has come to this...We tried to warn you but you didn't listen...So long and thanks for all the fish?

Superhero Haircuts

Thanks for the tip Christina, this site is great. Think my fav is the Magneto chic.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

3-D 80s

I don't know how VH1 keeps finding material, but their shows are STILL funny. Got the newish 1982 show on in the background, and I'm cracking up. Seriously, how cute and funny are Michael Ian Black and Hal Sparks? Crushing! Don't tell me their gay or a-holes; I don't want to know.

Awesome Day

So I highly recommend meeting someone in person you know in the blogsphere. I met Kristen Havens yesterday for brunch at a hipster place on Sunset and had a blast with her. Cool chic with a cool website.

Added bonus? Actually gave me the willpower to start the low-carb diet again. Going fine so far. Then I went back to S for the first time in a month, and accidentally wound up in a makeup class with a different teacher and students. I wandered into the Amazon Women on the Pole Class, and it was heaven. For once, I was the youngest and smallest in the room. Totally inspired by their bravery and gusto and sexiness. No more excuses; those women are ALL upside down on the pole, darnit. AND doing 'Ronde Jambe' and 'Corkscrew.' No excuses about the extra pounds to lift.

Added bonus of having an older and wiser teacher? Rad 80s music to S to like "Jukebox Hero" and "Hot Blooded" and "Pour Some Sugar on Me." What a blast. And I got to lapdance on the back pole to Dido's "Here With Me" which is the perfect mood/speed for me. Fun fun fun and I am sore sore sore today. Totally had the foot cramps and leg shakes back in class, and a cherry of a bruise on my arm and thigh today. Ah well. At least I can still walk in the six inch heels.

Monday, November 07, 2005


Lookie there. Haven't taken the Meyers-Briggs test in forever, and I'm still the same four letters. Kinda fun. Pretty much nails me, especially the piano-playing part: ENFP

Here's the test for you.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Poem about Mom

Christina wrote this about Mom right after her death (In Memory of Her: Fair Lady). I've been so out of it, I haven't visisted her blog since then. Thank you so much for your words and loving presence.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Beautiful! Posted by Picasa

Mom's LA Hootennanny...

Was lovely and just as spirited as she would have wanted it. Thanks to the fifty plus wonderful friends who attended. I'm sure she loved it. Pix:

Thank you Mark and Charmaine - so thoughtful Posted by Picasa

Sunflowers! Posted by Picasa

More lovelies Posted by Picasa

Beautiful Posted by Picasa

One of her fav flowers Posted by Picasa

Flowers Posted by Picasa

another table Posted by Picasa

Mom's Urn and red hat Posted by Picasa

Sign in Posted by Picasa

Bat? Posted by Picasa

Stat! Posted by Picasa

Superhero! Posted by Picasa

Hero! Posted by Picasa

Me (as Diana Prince half-changed) and Judd on Aslan Posted by Picasa

Mom (and Judd) Posted by Picasa

Patrick, me, Jack Posted by Picasa

Melissa, Melinda, me Posted by Picasa

Mario, Lis, Brenda, Allison, Dorie Posted by Picasa

Will, Patrick, Jack, Dave, Allison Posted by Picasa

Drew, Julie, Heidi, Danni, Mark, Lis, Chris, Tim, Lukas  Posted by Picasa

Tim, Patrick, Sacha, Kevin, Will Posted by Picasa

Craig and Shauna Posted by Picasa